because of our (human) nature, it is easy to fall prey to our emotions whether it be positive or negative. today, i felt two of them - anger and disappointment.
last week, i asked a favor from my sister to send some stuff to me thru a friend who is currently in Manila. to cut the long story short, my sister and my friend didn't meet because my friend forgot to call my sister. by the time i called my friend to check up on how are their meeting is doing, i learnt that she was already flying out of Manila that evening. i got sad but since am just asking a favor from my friend, i got over it in a snap. i learned that my friend's sister-in-law is still in Manila as well and will be going back to Singapore soon thereafter so i just contacted her. she was accomodating and agreed to take my stuff to me thru my sis. i emailed my sis about it and she replied in agreement. the day after i emailed her, my friend's SIL alerted me that my sis haven't contacted her yet. i got annoyed and disappointed because i would hate to waste another opportunity for my stuff to get to me. so earlier i sent her an email telling her to contact the person ASAP as i don't want for days to pass by again and forgetting about the package delivery yet once more. probably because she's pressured and tired from her work, she replied hinting annoyance at me. i quickly realized at that moment that i've been totally unfair to her. the things she will be sending to me won't even get sent to me in the first place if not for her help (and money) yet i have the nerve to boss her around and hurry her into doing my bidding. i readily apologized and asked nicely that she do it for me as a favor. she calmed and replied that she'll be doing so.
this scenario made me realize that because i know my sister loves me and would do things for me, even if she's tired or have other plans/priorities, that i have totally forgotten that i should still be grateful and gracious to her gestures towards me. then in comparison is how far greater so with Jesus' love. i know that He is always there for me, always listening to me, always guiding me, always loving me. but oftentimes, i find myself acting towards Him like i just did with my sister - i even have the callousness to question His intentions in spite of all the blessings He shower me with.
and so today i learned that whatever I may need, it will be given to me in His time, according to His will. i have to be patient and always be grateful.
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